Hey Operator (That's Not the Way it Feels)

Some ghosts don’t ever fully leave you. They just learn to live in the same house as your new happiness. This is my cover of Jim Croce’s “Operator,” but it’s a story I’ve lived. It’s for anyone who has loved, lost, and had to rebuild a world from the pieces. It’s about the specific ache of missing my ex-wife while navigating my own truth as a transgender woman. This video is a glimpse into that duality: the quiet grief that still visits, and the beautiful, chosen life that holds me now—my three incredible children, the peace I find on the water, and the strength I get from my community. It’s not about erasing the past. It’s about learning to carry it without letting it weigh you down. I hope it finds anyone who needs to hear that they’re not alone in feeling complicated things.