It was the song Careless Whisper. That shattered my egg. When I told Debi she said,she already had an inkling I laid there with as she held me and I came out to her fear the worse. She stayed with me help me research everything possible. Unlike the stories I’ve heard from other trans women. Debi stay with me to the end. Her last words were I was her husband that she loved very much. I didn’t care that she misgender me
More and more, in some way(s) it feels like you’re posting just for me… I know that’s goofy Jynx… I know my therapist I’ve been seeing for a bit is not right as he (Japanese/American descent) plays down ice’s action cuz we’re a small community, it took me 6 months on a waiting list to even get an appointment with him.
I finally passed the fear (why?) and got in touch with the local pride group which is helping even if it’s just the knowledge there are other people out in the world who might be where I am… that’s my “no shit Sherlock” moment of the last month. I’ve been to several get together and know it’s the right direction whatever I turn out to be, so to speak…
I feel like with many things you’ve posted, you’re almost becoming like my high school guidance counselor 😳 no offense intended and at my age that’s also a scary thought…
Thanks Jynx for this post I’m late to be seeing, but crying my way through it, and this reply too ! Funny way to say I appreciate what you’re saying even if it’s not actually directed towards me.
It’s Substack in general as there’s so many shining lights, guiding the way by being themselves and sharing in ways like this, I know it’s kept me going and given support in the last 18 months or so that I don’t know what things would’ve been like instead…
Thanks Jynx, I’m not quite a work in progress yet, just in my mind I guess but I guess even that is a start, now I feel like I have to straighten out the kids, or ask them to leave if there’s no cooperation with communal life… 🤷🏼
Yes indeed, I’m hopeful it’s not a case of elder abuse forming. Actually I hate to think that way and yet, they are adults who are healthy enough to be a helpful part of the life and place we are in now 🤷🏼 it’s not going to last this way much longer though I know that…
Thank you, Jynx, for sharing your story and talking about your journey. It’s such important insight into what it’s like NOT to always know, to make hard decisions, and persevere. I hope I can have as successful a transition as you have. Thanks for being here and for making yourself a resource. ❤️🏳️⚧️
Congratulations! Taking those first steps toward something unknown is the hardest thing to do. I’m not sure why some people pursue that thing - whatever it is that’s calling us to go forward or why some people, I’m guessing more people don’t. Fear The only way to know if it’s ok, if it’s safe, if it’s even possible, is to do it! What’s the worst that can happen? At that point we’re already living in the worst that can happen so Daayum! Take the step out of it and into a new journey. I’m glad you did. I’m glad I have a few different times in my life. I know I’m talking about different journeys, yours and mine. But that feeling is right in line with big life decisions. You know, I’ve never regretted any of my decisions when it came to do or not do something. If I feel fear that’s more reason for me to explore it and find out what that fear is all about. We have to face that and walk into it. Head on.
Good to hear you are comfortable with your decision. Doesn’t it feel great?
Take care. Keep spreading that strong positive vibe. It’s good!
It was the song Careless Whisper. That shattered my egg. When I told Debi she said,she already had an inkling I laid there with as she held me and I came out to her fear the worse. She stayed with me help me research everything possible. Unlike the stories I’ve heard from other trans women. Debi stay with me to the end. Her last words were I was her husband that she loved very much. I didn’t care that she misgender me
I am happy you are here with us CC.
If can be perfectly honest after Debi passed I did think about joining the club
I know, I have thought that many times too
I know
More and more, in some way(s) it feels like you’re posting just for me… I know that’s goofy Jynx… I know my therapist I’ve been seeing for a bit is not right as he (Japanese/American descent) plays down ice’s action cuz we’re a small community, it took me 6 months on a waiting list to even get an appointment with him.
I finally passed the fear (why?) and got in touch with the local pride group which is helping even if it’s just the knowledge there are other people out in the world who might be where I am… that’s my “no shit Sherlock” moment of the last month. I’ve been to several get together and know it’s the right direction whatever I turn out to be, so to speak…
I feel like with many things you’ve posted, you’re almost becoming like my high school guidance counselor 😳 no offense intended and at my age that’s also a scary thought…
Thanks Jynx for this post I’m late to be seeing, but crying my way through it, and this reply too ! Funny way to say I appreciate what you’re saying even if it’s not actually directed towards me.
It’s Substack in general as there’s so many shining lights, guiding the way by being themselves and sharing in ways like this, I know it’s kept me going and given support in the last 18 months or so that I don’t know what things would’ve been like instead…
❤️🩹 Thank you Jynx
I am so happy I have been so much help for you. I believe in you and I know you got this.
Thanks Jynx, I’m not quite a work in progress yet, just in my mind I guess but I guess even that is a start, now I feel like I have to straighten out the kids, or ask them to leave if there’s no cooperation with communal life… 🤷🏼
That is a difficult situation to say the least
Yes indeed, I’m hopeful it’s not a case of elder abuse forming. Actually I hate to think that way and yet, they are adults who are healthy enough to be a helpful part of the life and place we are in now 🤷🏼 it’s not going to last this way much longer though I know that…
Thanks for listening Jynx
you have such beautiful eyes 😍
Thank you 😊 😊
Thank you, Jynx, for sharing your story and talking about your journey. It’s such important insight into what it’s like NOT to always know, to make hard decisions, and persevere. I hope I can have as successful a transition as you have. Thanks for being here and for making yourself a resource. ❤️🏳️⚧️
I am happy an honored to do so. Please feel welcome to reach out any time.
Congratulations! Taking those first steps toward something unknown is the hardest thing to do. I’m not sure why some people pursue that thing - whatever it is that’s calling us to go forward or why some people, I’m guessing more people don’t. Fear The only way to know if it’s ok, if it’s safe, if it’s even possible, is to do it! What’s the worst that can happen? At that point we’re already living in the worst that can happen so Daayum! Take the step out of it and into a new journey. I’m glad you did. I’m glad I have a few different times in my life. I know I’m talking about different journeys, yours and mine. But that feeling is right in line with big life decisions. You know, I’ve never regretted any of my decisions when it came to do or not do something. If I feel fear that’s more reason for me to explore it and find out what that fear is all about. We have to face that and walk into it. Head on.
Good to hear you are comfortable with your decision. Doesn’t it feel great?
Take care. Keep spreading that strong positive vibe. It’s good!
Have hope! 🤜🏽🤛🏻